Josiah and I were chatting the other night, and I was discouraged about all the medical bills we had to pay, plus we needed new tires on the car, and still had our normal bills (insurance, phone, etc) to pay. I just couldn’t see how we were going to make it financially. We’d been living off savings, but now it’s time for us to raise the support we need to live in Papua New Guinea, and we can’t work a job while traveling around raising support.
“So even if God somehow provides for the surgery, we still need to raise support, and I just don’t think anyone is interested in being a part of our support team,” I told Josiah.
“Well how much support do you think God wants to provide this summer? How much do you think God want us to trust Him for?”
“Maybe 10%, but that’s $680! I really doubt that we could raise that much.”
“Rach, how big is your faith?”
“It’s not that I don’t have faith, it’s just that I’m trying to be reasonable.”
“How big is your God?”
Um….that question stopped me short. “Well it’s not that I have a small view of God, it’s just that I’m trying to be reasonable.” (which means, “I’m doubting God”) So we prayed, asking God to provide for the surgery bills, and maybe even the money for getting tires for the car…but I still had my doubts.
The next morning, I was going through the routine of checking email, and the first email I saw stopped me in my tracks. There was an email from some friends of ours saying that they were sending us money to help pay for my surgery…and the amount they were sending was the exact amount that we needed to finish paying all those medical bills. What’s more, they wanted to support us financially each month — and the amount they want to support us for equals about 4.4% of our support! Here I was, doubting that God might be able to provide 10% in a summer, and overnight, God provided 4.4%!! In an instant, I felt overwhelmed with gratitude and praise to God, and yet humbled and awed by how God provided for us even in the midst of my doubt. How big is my God? My view of Him just got bigger.
Is God stretching your view of Him? If not, ask Him to!